The excitement of Bible study
Have you ever had the experience of studying a book of the Bible on your own?
That is, without using a study guide that someone else wrote? Without referring to commentaries? Just reading and praying and asking the Lord to open your eyes?
We’ve been told, perhaps, that this is dangerous, that we need to build our learning on the shoulders of those who have gone before, and I do understand that to an extent.
But I’ve also seen that the requirement to buttress every argument with some already-published and recognized author (even if it’s simply someone who was published because he’s good at marketing) can mean that I’ll be hampered in my ability to think for myself and be led of the Spirit on my own.
(This, by the way, is what happened to Martin Luther when he decided to read and study the Bible on his own.)
Studying Romans
So, sometime in the 1990s, I set out to study Romans. I wasn’t as regular then in asking the Lord to open my eyes to His truth, but I really, really wanted to understand His Word that He had given us, so He was gracious to me anyway.
I printed it out on paper, with plenty of space in the margins, and I put it in a red folder. (I still have it.)
I color coded words to try to find themes. I drew lines connecting common phrases.
On the facing pages, the empty pages, I drew diagrams and stick figures. I made charts and graphs and lists.
I knew other people had done all this before. Someone might have said to me, “Why re-invent the wheel?” But I knew what I was doing was not the same as invention. This was a seeking for heart understanding. This was a seeking to know God. I didn’t want to be spoon fed.
Every place I read something that I didn’t understand—and there were plenty of those—I put a question mark in the margin and asked God to help me understand it.
About a year or two after I finished studying through the book, I studied through it again. During the interim I had been studying other books of the Bible, so I found that a few of the question marks could be erased because I understood what these passages meant.
A couple of years later I did it again. And more were erased, with explanations provided.
And again.
By this time in my Christian journey, much of what I had thought was true (from fundamentalism) had been upended, and Tim and I were seeing so many things in new ways. By this time in my Christian life one of my prayers was for the Lord to strip away preconceived notions of what everything “had to mean” and show me what it really meant.
As I continued to study the Word of God and seek to know what He really said and what He really meant, more and more of Romans came clear to me.
Through Romans and the other Bible books I was studying, important Christian Life truths began to crystallize.
Living by the List
In Romans, one of Paul’s main themes is refuting the concept of Living by the List in order to find the path to God, or God’s favor, or a loving relationship with God. For Paul’s audience, the “list” was the Old Testament law and all the extra trappings that had been added on to it.
I grew up living by a list, so that was familiar. My list was the list of Independent Baptist fundamentalism, and I’m telling you it took me a long time to shake it—I was even in it to some extent while doing this study. (The fact that I’m still quite conservative in my Christianity isn’t meant to be taken as indication that I haven’t shaken Rules-as-Means-to-Relationship now—I have.)
As I studied Romans, I saw two clear responses to Living by the List.
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Great article, I love it. God showed me the same things about Roman’s. In Paul’s time, “the law” meant OT Judaism, Jewish law. But what is “law” to you? What has become a law in our own lives? It could be anything.
Another great Blog post❤️ THANK YOU. And i just went to purchase my second “Untwisting…” book – i hope it is as helpful as the first one has been in helping me see the many blind spots i grew up with that sounded so spiritual!
You are a true Warrior for the Wounded and all of God’s people who are willing to learn!❤️
Thank you so much, friend.
LOVE this, Rebecca!!!
AMEN to all you say… It seems odd to say, but in some ways, I was fortunate NOT to grow up in a Christian home… at lease not a legalistic one. I grew up un-churched, and found a love relationship with Jesus when at 17, I cried out to Him to help me… and boy did He. I truely fell in love with Him.. but, as the years went on, the tentacles of ‘another Gospel’ encroached. (Going to listen to Bill Gothard in college didn’t help.) I have learned to hold tight to the the freedom, love, and joy that I first knew.. and YOU have helped me to spot the lies – that sound like the truth!
Oh Jane, so much of our thinking got twisted by the gentle-seeming Bill Gothard. He factors largely in this 2nd Untwisting Scriptures book. Of course if you’re going to talk about “Authority” you have to address Bill Gothard!
Yay! Can’t wait to get my new copy of the book! I loved volume 1 and I’m pretty sure I’ll love this one, too. Amazon tells me I have to wait until the 23rd. Hurry up, Pony Express!
What in the world? Is that for the paperback or the e-book?
I hope it will be helpful to you. I do appreciate you and your work, Joel.
Kindle version came immediately
Rebecca – Amen, love this. Listening through all of Romans in one sitting, many times, continues to be an incredible growing-experience for me. I now make it a practice to do the same with much of the NT. And I mark up my Bible like crazy as I’m reading on my own. (And additionally as I learn from others.)
I did read this and was a bit surprised:
“His commands are accomplished naturally in me as He loves me, as I love Him, and as He loves others through me.”
Mmm, careful. That statement needs more fleshing out to be biblically sound? What do you mean by the words “are accomplished naturally??” To me, they seem to imply that I do not need to work out my own salvation. Yes, the Spirit works powerfully in me….. but I *also* need to be reaching forward toward what is ahead – the Christian life is *strenuous.* “Be killing sin or it will be killing you,” John Owen said. The Spirit empowers us to put sin to death. I would not use a passive verb to describe this process. And I would not use the word “naturally.” It’s not in my old nature to be killing sin. It’s the new Spirit man that is enabled to fight the battle with the old flesh man.
And I’m definitely not saying here *everything* that needs to be said, and probably not saying it perfectly biblically correctly. 🙂
I’m interested in your response …….
Yes, it’s all motivated by *love*, mutual love both vertically and horizontally. Amen.
Thanks for the thoughtful response, Julie! I don’t mean to say by that that we will be sinless. but I do believe we’ll be “free from sin” as Romans says. I’ve blogged about that here: https://heresthejoy.com/2014/03/free-from-sin/
When I say “naturally,” I’m referring to the new nature we’re given under the New Covenant. I believe that the Bible teaches that sanctification is accomplished by faith alone in Christ alone, though that would not be passive faith but very active faith, and I’ve blogged about that many times, so it’s been fleshed out in many blog posts, and will continue to be as I continue to write about it. This truth about the Christian life is the reason I started this blog back in 2009.
I understand that that quotation from John Owen is a popular one, but I disagree with him about it–that is, I believe it’s not Biblical. WE are the ones who are dead to sin and arisen again in Christ, so we don’t need to kill the sin. We are resurrected to new life, as Romans 7 talks about.
There is much more to be said here, but much of it has already been said in various blog posts, such as the series I wrote about dying to self. I understand that my view isn’t all that mainstream in Christianity, but indeed, that’s why I started this blog. Because I believed these things needed to be said and I could find precious few people who were saying them.
Rebecca, I just read the other blog post you referenced here (I’m a relative newcomer to your blog), and am learning so much. We have so much in common – loving Jesus and his grace for starters, and running to him in joy, knowing what he has done for us and how much he loves us – but it’s fascinating to me how we see some things a little bit differently, based on our own experiences. So we each have our own lens (as does everyone).
I do not come from a legalistic background (my sympathies for you and others). Growing up, I barely new the basics of Christmas and Easter. In college Jesus began a new work in me …… My lens was love and joy, but my knowing him didn’t go that deep because I did not begin to know the *depth and heinousness* of my sin until many many years later. So Owen’s words, written I assume in the context of reckoning seriously with the sin that will always remain in us until final redemption, are a breath of fresh air to me. I want to take my sin seriously because of how much I love Jesus and how much he loves me. I want to grow to be more like the one who is my brother and my Savior.
So…… you and I come to this with very different experiences. I think I can understand yours quite a bit because you tell of it so well. And recently, I have experienced a type of Gothard oppression, so that also greatly informs my perspective.
Re Romans 6 – have you read Sinclair Ferguson on it? I believe there’s a chapter in “Devoted to God” in which he makes a very strong case that from the context, we are delivered from the *reign* of sin – it is no longer our master, we are no longer its slave – we are set free from sin’s *dominion.* This perspective, to me, makes sense of all of Romans, and the entire NT. Perhaps you would also agree?
I appreciate this discussion – clear thinking and discerning the truth, knowing the one who set me free, has been an anchor in a desperate time. Thankful for you.
PS I can see how Owen’s words interpreted from a different angle might be problematic. I have never seen the original context – I want to read more of him.
Thank you so much, Julie. I want to take my sin seriously too. There have been at least two gigantic times in my life that I have been confronted with my own sin like a monster, a gigantic monster, terrifying. The second time, when I battled for about a year (some of my readers will know what I’m talking about because of a special email list I invited them to), I said to the Lord, “I’m so tired of battling my own sin. Lord, I want to battle for others!”
He did deliver me. That is not to say I think I don’t sin anymore. I get confronted on my sin regularly (by the Holy Spirit and by other people), and I take the words to heart. But I have never *battled* the way I did those two times.
Yes, absolutely I agree with your thoughts about how we are no longer the slaves of sin–that’s what is meant by freedom from sin. Not only Sinclair Ferguson, but many people have written about that.
For me, the answer that came in my second round of battle with my own sin was an understanding of my freedom from sin in Jesus Christ and how all my sanctification and victory are accomplished through faith in Him. This blog post only alludes to the battle: https://heresthejoy.com/2013/01/the-thick-darkness-where-god-was/ I’ve never written about that battle publicly, though all my blog and the ministry I have with the abused is the fruit of the victory He gave me at that time. Some have called it the “dark night of the soul.” That’s not in the Bible, so take it with a grain of salt, but it certainly was my experience.
Amen. I just read your “thick darkness” blog and was blessed, even though my struggle is a bit different (I was made to question my sanity through gaslighting and then a counselor not believing me about the gaslighting – it was *my sense of knowing Jesus* that I questioned, doubting my own thoughts – takes a long time to recover from that trauma.) I’m sure you would agree that the *principle* of the “dark night of the soul” is certainly in the psalms, using different words? Jesus knows, and he gave us the words he knew we’d need. Thank you again.
I’m so sorry you experienced that, Julie. Yes, it can take a long time to recover from the trauma. I’m glad you had the terminology, though–having the words can make a world of difference.
God bless you.
Hi Rebecca,
I have come across your blog very recently. I agree with so much of what you write. Also in Romans: “sin shall not have mastery over you” is a verse God used to encourage me with while I was in a legalistic church. The church was divided by constant fighting over doctrines of Calvinism and such. I found my joy and even my love and faith in the Lord Jesus shrinking. I finally got on my knees and shared my heart with Jesus, telling Him that He is all I want. As Corrie Ten Boom was fond of saying, “With Jesus we have the victory and the best is yet to come!” We left that church and Jesus has been my constant companion, restoring my joy and simple faith in Him.. God bless you for sharing your heart.
This is so beautiful. Thank you so much, Maggie, and welcome.
Love this post Rebecca! Because of Jesus, we can be in relationship with God. That’s amazing!
Rebecca, I lived through similar things! My early life as a born again Christian was spent in an Independent, Fundamental Baptist Church, complete with a “standard sheet” and many, many rules. I added to those rules my own checklist: Read the Bible every day. Pray. Make homemade meals for my family. Homeschool. Keep the house clean. Sew clothing. Do, do, do it all. I loved God with all my heart but lived a HARD life as I checked off my list or failed to accomplish my own standards and felt guilty. I, too, was taught graciously by my Heavenly Father to rest in the finished work of Jesus Christ. When Christian pastor or leader tells me, “You are sinning! You likely aren’t even a Christian because you made a bad choice there!” I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that they are wrong. Jesus said, “My sheep hear My voice, and they follow ME.” I love living in relationship with Jesus. I hear His voice. I know the indwelling Holy Spirit leads and guides. And I know the deep, deep love of the Father whose mercies endure forever. May the series of books you are writing open the eyes of those who are stuck with twisted up Scriptures ruling them.
Thank you so much, resting! God bless you!
It seems so many of us grew up learning about Christianity and the Christian faith through some sense of legalism.. I myself lived in a legalistic group through my childhood and youth, one that really did define the ‘right faith’ by the things you’re not supposed to do. Yes, not drinking, not dancing, not going to the movies, not watching TV… those were the main outward points of faith (and were the common standard among most churches and pietist groups until the 70’s and 80’s..),while the essential core was obedience and blind submission to the community.
No restrictions on the dress though – I hadn’t even heard about all this ‘skirts only’ mindset being so common in America, until I was in my 30’s.
(that would not work well here, where practical and sensible clothing have been viewed as normal even among the most legalistic and conservative sects… however, in Siberia, Russia, in many Baptist and Pentecostal churches women do wear skirts as the norm! )
What I now see as a contradiction though, is how one was relatively free having one’s private thoughts and preferences, as long as they were not conflicting with the group norms. While TV, movies and theater were banned, many people would read secular literature. Even some really questionable stuff.. I remember seeing some borderline pornographic comic book in one family’s home… People were not expected to ‘renew their mind’, as long they outwardly complied and did not rock the boat. Thy could live as individuals within the strict lines carved for them inside the community.
I met much worse form of brainwash and legalism in some Charismatic circles. the demand to be close to God meant to crucify all your own interests, desires, hopes and dreams. One had always to strive to stay in the anointing, to be spiritual, to hear God, etc etc etc… your spiritual stature was constantly under scrutiny.
The methods used were mentally much more intrusive than those rules in the legalistic form of Christianity I knew in my childhood – even if make up and earrings were allowed 🙂
That’s why I hate all kinds of control attempts and manipulation so much, be it legalistic or spiritual in nature… both are damaging and twisted.
Yes, so true.
It was actually ‘easier’ to ‘please God’ in legalism. One knew what was expected; as long as one did not question the doctrine.